A Week from Today

Shaun will start moving out into his apartment. Yes, we are separating. If you're out of the loop, the long and short of it is, we had problems, lots of them and instead of turning to me, Shaun turned to another person. So, for me, that put it over the edge. We have tried getting help, but nothing seems to be working. I had asked for the separation originally, but Shaun was never for it. This time, it was Shaun's idea. I agreed w/him that it was probably for the best, so this is where we are at.

Things have actually been going rather well. We've been able to work out most of the details reasonably. I helped him find an apartment, we've worked together on splitting the things in our home, and we've also worked together on splitting our money and the time w/kids (usually the 2 big things to argue about).

There are times when I ask myself why we're even separating bc we do have days that are just good and normal. But, then we have other days that aren't so good, or thoughts of that other person creep into my mind, and I remember why we need this time apart. We both need time to think. I wasn't planning on a year, but it was what Shaun felt was best. I guess we'll see as time goes on.

During this time I have a few prayer requests of everyone:

First, pray for the boys! My heart breaks just thinking of it!! The boys are used to daddy getting them up and fixing them breakfast. Him not being there for the day or bedtime isn't new, but they will definitely realize he isn't around. And, then there will be the days that I'm not there at all for them. This will be hard on both of us! I'm always there, everyday, mostly all day. Pray that they won't act out. Pray that they will have a childish unawareness.

Secondly, pray for Shaun and I. I know there are things that Shaun needs to change for us to work, and I know there are things that I need to change. Pray that God will work in our lives and in our hearts. I truly believe we need a miracle, and I know if it's God's will, that He will provide this miracle!

Lastly, pray for the people around us. We are not going into this w/the hopes of divorce. We are both going into this w/the hopes that the time and distance will give us the clarity and strength we will need to continue on. Pray that the people around us will not fill our heads w/unnecessary negativism. I do not expect people to skate around the issues, but we need people to help w/solutions, not bring more problems to the table that don't even exist. Also, our children don't need us nor others bad mouthing the other parent. It will do no good, only harm. I know our situation is different/not the norm, and so we are needing people to respond and react against their normal instincts. Hence why we need prayers in this aspect!

The Whole Story

It's about time!

I used to love the view, but since Rosie joined the crew, I've been more mad then happy after watching it. B4 anyone goes concluding that I'm a gay hater, let me tell you the order that my shows go in the morning. We watch kids shows until 10A, at which time my TV automatically turns to Ellen. After Ellen, it goes to the View. I LOVE Ellen. I think she's funny and a great host. Rosie just rubs me the wrong way. She doesn't let anyone talk if it goes against what she believes, and the way she disrespects our military men just drives me up the wall!!! I was not sad at all to hear that they kicked her off the show a month early, in fact, I did a happy dance :) GOOD RIDDANCE ROSIE!

My New Addition....Blake

Ok, so we've always had a dog, since b4 the boys came around. We got Hercules first. He is a Chihauhau/Dashound. He's four now, but doesn't he look old?

Then we got Dutchess. She was my little princess:

Well, when I went on bedrest w/Jaden, Dutchess got spoiled and spoiled BAD. She never forgave me for having Jaden, and when I got pregnant w/Asher, I knew she for sure wouldn't be happy. So, I gave her to my in-laws, where believe it or not, she is even MORE spoiled then when I had her.
Hercules and I don't get along. He's Shaun's dog, but Shaun doesn't have time for him. He's been living outside for over a yr now, year round. I keep telling Shaun that he needs a good home, that it's not fair to him, but Shaun didn't want to get rid of him. Well, w/everything that is going on, I found Hercules a good home w/people whom will care for him.
Now, that leaves my kids dogless, and one day, Jaden went outside looking for the dog, and well, he wasn't there. I remember when I was little. I came home from school looking for my dog and come to find out, my parent's had put him to sleep. So, I had to replace their doggie. I wanted a dog that would be good w/kids and somewhat protective. I found these puppies in the paper. They were black lab mixed w/a german shephard. I went, there were about 6 of them, and of course, they were just SO cute. All of them were just jumping around and pawing at me, except for one. There was one little boy that was just sitting there looking all sad, and I knew he was the one. So, I took Blake home w/me, and he's been a PERFECT fit!

He is such a mellow little boy. My parent's puppy bites on the the kids all the time, and needless to say, they're not too thrilled about it. Blake doesn't bite at them. He loves to lick their faces, and he lets them do WHATEVER they like to him! Asher likes to carry him around hanging upside down :) Asher has definitely claimed him as HIS puppy...lol. Just wanted to share the new member of my family.

Asher's 1st Hair Cut

I did it a couple of weeks ago, and just forgot to post about it. The pictures aren't the best bc I forgot my camera and had to take them w/my cell phone but here they are.
Before:



Can you see how long his bangs are and how shaggy it is in the back? I wanted to keep the same baby look, but trim it up some. Here's how it turned out:

green snot

Why can't my kids stay healthy?? I just don't get it! Asher and Jaden have green snot flowing from this today. I guess only time will tell as to whether it is just a cold or going to be something else.
Also, Asher has decided that playing w/the TV is SOOO much fun! We had a tv guard for Jaden, but I'm not sure where it went. Anyways, he puts things in the vcr, and he likes to change the channel or turn the tv off. Then he runs away and claps, like I'm supposed to be happy that he did this...lol. He's in for a lot of hand slapping.

my saturday

I had a good Saturday considering how my week has gone. At 8A, I was at the Westnedge Hill's garage sales w/my mom and sister, and we got some GREAT deals! I was almost as anxious for these garage sales as I am for the day after Thanksgiving sales :) We walked around for about 3 hrs.
Then, I went out to lunch w/my best friend Beth whom I never get to see bc she lives an hour away. We went to Finley's and talked for about 2hrs!! It was such a good time to talk about what's going on in our lives and talk about our children and see which child has hit which stage. Both of ours seem to be in the notty toddler stage..lol
Finally, as if I wasn't gone enough of the day, I went out w/a group of girls from church that I go to a Bible study with. We went to Culvers and sat around talking for 3hrs and then we went and closed down the mall. We also did this thing where we each bought a $5 pair of sandles and blindly traded them w/each other. I got the cutest pair of sandles which of course I had to wear today to church to show off :)
All in all, it was a really great day! I enjoyed the time away from my husband and from the kids (though I did feel bad for not being home w/the kids practically all day), and I enjoyed the time to talk w/friends and just relax. Everyone needs those kinds of days every once in a while!

Prayers

It seems like Satan won't let me have a momment of happiness. My last few blogs have been happy and praise filled, and now he brings this. I will stand in the rain, and through it all I will praise Him in the storm, but I will need lots and lots of prayers.
I'm going to be vague bc there are people who don't know me personally who read this, and like to print it off and make a big deal about it to Shaun at work. I thought about limiting who could read my blog, but it seemed like a lot of extra work. I figure, if you trully know me, you'll know what I'm talking about. If you don't, call or email me, and I'll fill you in.
Once things are finalized, I'll probably blog openly about them, but until then, heres what I'll say. Things do not look good on many different levels. I'm not sure where to turn, what to do, or how God plans on seeing me through this. Everytime I have doubted Him, He has still pulled me through, and never let me down. So, even though my physical mind can't grasp what is going on, my heart is trying to clinge tight to His word.
Pray for me, the boys, and Shaun. Pray lots and pray hard! Thanks.

Day out w/Tommy aka Thomas the Train

We went last Thursday to see Tommy aka Thomas the Train at the Henry Ford Museum w/my in-laws. Jaden had a BLAST! His eyes got SOOO big when he saw the life size Thomas. They had train sets set up around the park, and every time we found one, I thought we'd never get him away. He got a free tattoo of Tommy on his hand. He got to ride on the train, which, though he seemed VERY serious about it, I know was one of the highlights of the day! He also got to ride a carosel, which he thoroughly enjoys.
Asher on the other hand, enjoyed being outside, but wasn't too thrilled about a lot of things. He's my timid baby, so he wasn't happy about the train ride. He doesn't like carosels, so I didn't even try to get him to do that. While Jaden was riding though, he saw these two ladies holding balloons, and he wanted them SO bad. He walked over to them and gave them the BIGGEST puppy dog eyes ever...LOL. We weren't going to buy the balloons bc they were like $6 and a huge rip off in my opinion, but after that, Shaun decided to go buy him one :) Asher took his balloon and went over to the ladies to show them as if to say "see, I got one!" LOL...it was TOO cute!
Here are some pictures from the day. The 1st one of Jaden meeting Sir Toppin Hat, if he looks scared, it's bc he was :)