Substitute Mom

Ok, I LOVE motherhood. My babies are the joys of my life, but there are some moments when I wish I could tag in a substitute mommy. Like, today, when Jaden puked all over my couch and through the halls to the bathroom (sorry, should have warned TMI). That's one of the moments when I would have LOVED for someone else to play mommy. I must say, out of all the things that come along w/motherhood, real throw up is the worst! I can handle spit up as infants, and even really bad poopy diapers are do-able. He was sick two nights ago, but he'd been puke free for a day, so I totally wasn't expecting it. And they both got their flue shots this year! I really hope my buddy gets feeling better soon, for his sake and selfishly for mine too.

Three Years Old

Three years ago today, I went into the hospital at 7A to be induced. And after the worst imaginable delivery w/no epidural bc I wanted to know how a real vaginal birth felt, I gave birth to my 1st born baby boy at 3:35P weighing 8lbs and 7ozs, whom we named Jaden Michael. Jaden is Hebrew meaning "God has heard" and Michael is his daddy's middle name. And after only 5mos of colic, I had a happy little baby boy.

So much has happened in the past three years, and he's changed so much. He's very much all boy! He's finally potty trained...YAY :) He loves cars, trains, trucks, airplanes, helicopters, pretty much anything w/wheels..lol He loves the outdoors. His favorite movie is Ratatouille followed by Monster's Inc, Incredibles, Cars, Ice Age and Fox and the Hound. Oh, and lets not forget his love for sports, soccer, I think, being his favorite.
I must say I find it hard to believe I'm the mother of a three year old. I'm not that old yet am I :P But, it's been a joy watching him grow and change, and I can't wait to see what else his future holds!

trust

Trust is something I'm struggling w/these days. At first, I didn't think I had a problem. But the more time that passes, the more I find myself waiting for the floor to fall out from underneith of me and for what I've known from previous experiences to become true in my present experience. My head tells me that it's not fair to act upon my assumptions of what I feel might be when I haven't been given any reason to believe that it would be. But, how do I train my heart?

I forgot

I FINALLY got my first child support check. The state finally got it's stuff together and in order!! I chewed the lady out at the office bc before they decided to step in and "help out" I WAS getting my child support. Not until they stuck their noses into everything did I miss almost a month's worth of pymts. But I am thankful that it's coming again.
Also, got my taxes figured out. After seeing what benefitted who the most, I think they're finally ready to be filed...YAY!!! I do need to readjust so that I get more of that money back during the year vs waiting for a refund at the end of the year. But, not having earned income in over a year, I wasn't sure where I needed my exemptions to be at. Now that I know, I can do some adjusting to hopefully help out throughout the year more!

Possible Solution

My sister told me today that she would be interested in taking Blake. So, if I get rid of him, which I probably will, I atleast know he has a good home to go to. Plus, the kids will still be able to see him. I know the kids will miss him, and they'll probably want another dog. And, I'll get them another dog WHEN they're older and able to have the responsibility for a dog. Or, when I have more time to deal w/a dog.