2yrs Old

Oh, I remember it as if it were yesterday. I was scheduled to be induced on 2-22-06 bc even though I'd been having contractions every night for over a week, the little boy inside of me was not deciding to come out. Tuesday morning, 2-21-06, I woke up as I had been w/contractions at 3 in the morning. But, this time, I told myself I wasn't even going to waste my time w/timing them bc I knew, like every other morning, as soon as an hour passed, the contractions would pass as well. So, I went back to sleep, only to be awoken again at 5 w/them being as strong as ever. I remember Shaun woke up and went to the bathroom. By time he came back, he knew it was the real thing and called into work. I waited for another hour b4 calling my mother to tell her that she needed to call into work. By 7, my mom was over to take Jaden to the babysitters b4 joining us at the hospital, and Shaun and I were off to Bronson. By time I got checked in, it was 8, and I was 8cms dialated. I received an epidural and rested for a bit. By 11, my doctor was broke my water, and it was time to start pushing. At 11:35, I delivered my second baby boy whom we named Asher Lee. Asher is Hebrew meaning "happy and blessed", and Lee is my father's middle name.

My family has yet to forgive me for letting them take this picture, but I laugh everytime I see it! I say, this is what I'm going to use for birthcontrol for Asher. I'm going to pull each of his little girlfriends to the side and say, "if you're thinking of having sex w/my son, look long and hard at this bc this is what you'll get"...LOL Asher was the worst of my colicky babies! He was colicky for 6mos. I had to give up all diary products and still he was NOT a happy baby. There for a while, I thought for sure we'd picked the wrong name for him :P
But Asher is a happy baby and very much my blessing!! He's still my little baby, a momma's boy. Like his brother, he likes anything w/wheels, though trains would have to be his favorite. And, I'd say that football is his favorite sport. I'm just so happy to have him in my life and can't wait for more! Happy Birthday Baby!!!

Birthdays Party

I'm getting really frustrated w/the boys' birthdays party. I'm continuing the tradition of one party, two themes. I know eventually the boys won't be thrilled w/a joint party, but I think I can get away w/it for a few more years. The boys have each picked out their theme. Jaden is doing football, and Asher is doing Mickey Mouse. The only problem is, we can't see to keep a date for the party! My parent's house burned, which is where the party was going to be held at, so that moved it back the first time around. Then it was going to be at my sister's house, but she ended up having to work. It's currently scheduled for Sunday bc my parent's should be back in their house, but I looked at my schedule, and even though I've NEVER worked a Sunday, she has me scheduled on Sunday. GRRRRRRRRR! I asked to be switched to another day, but if that doesn't work, I'll have to work the hours. As it is, I'm down to 19hrs a week bc we've been SO SLOW. I can't afford to lose any hours. I can't live off what I'm making now, let alone losing even more hours. So, hopefully, on day soon, we'll have a party, and I'll have pictures to share.
On a side note, I had a phone interview yesterday. If they liked me, they'll call me back w/in 3-4 days for an official interview. Pray I get that phone call!!!!!!

Filed

Yep, after months of procrastination, I finally filed the divorce papers. I'm not sure what I feel right now. I don't regret my decision. Shaun and I have discussed it MANY times, and we're not going to be able to work through things. We've both moved on and know it's just not going to work. But, it still doesn't make going through this any easier. I feel for my boys. I feel for the kind of life they're going to have going from one parent to the other. But, part of me knows that it will be better in a way bc maybe they'll be able to see a healthier side of mommy and daddy (I hope and pray!). They still have a mommy and daddy that love them w/all their hearts, and hopefully we'll be able to show them how to get along even when things don't go the way you planned!
Please just continue to keep us all in your prayers!!

New Hair Color

Ok, I decided I wanted to dye my hair again. I was going to go dark brown, but I couldn't find a color dark enough. So, I found a box that said soft black, and that's what I did. So, here's the new me.