as we forgive our debtors....

My pastor has been doing a series of sermons on the Lord's prayer, and today's portion was on "as we forgive our debtors". It was a REALLY good sermon....I'm glad Shaun was able to come today. I really do enjoy my pastor, he's pretty good at putting things on your level and just being straight forward about even the hard stuff!!

Anyways, the story he used as an example was in Matthew. It was about the king who decided to order that everyone who owed him anything was to be brought b4 him. Well, this one guy who roughly owed 12 million dollars (HOPELESSLY in debt) came b4 the king. The guy obviously didn't have the money, but asked the king for one more day b/c if he didn't pay it meant prison for him and slavery for his family. Well, the king decided to cancel is debt and let him go. Anyways, this guy leaves the palace, runs into a guy that owes him a measely 17 dollars, practically strangles him to death, and DEMANDS his money. Well, guy #2 pretty much says the same thing that guy #1 said to the king, but guy #1 didn't care. He ordered guy #2 to be thrown in jail till he could pay. The king heard this, brought back in guy #1, and sentenced him to a life of torture in prison until he could pay back his debt (basically giving him a life sentence of torture). The moral of the story was that God has forgiven our sins, our debt that we are HOPELESS to repay, and that he expects us to go and forgive others. My pastor pointed out that the point of this part of the prayer "forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors" is to show us that how we forgive others is how God will forgive us, kinda scarey huh??? The story is also to point out that it ANGERS God when he has forgiven us SO much, and we are unwilling to forgive others. One of the points my pastor made was that we will NEVER forgive someone for as much as God has forgiven us.

He also had this great quote. "Holding onto resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die"-unkown. He pointed out that resentment only hurts us, not the person we're mad at. Most of the time, the other person could care less, and they've moved on w/their lives while we are still stewing. Resentment makes you a victom.

Anyways, it was a really good sermon and pretty good timing for me to hear it too. I've really been enjoying this sermon. God has really been hitting me w/something new each week!

WHY?

It seems like a lot of my friends are either having babies or just had babies. I'm very happy for them, but it makes me miss my unborn child. I thought I had gotten over the loss of Levi, but today, I broke down again and morned for my unborn child. Even as I write this, tears are falling down my face. The hurt is over powering. I should be 13wks along w/what I trully believe would have been our little girl (if you believe that the timing of conception has anything to do w/it, which I do).
I know that right now is not a good time for us to bring another little one into the world for many reasons. I also know that the time to have another baby may not come for a long time. I know, you all think I'm crazy! Asher is only 8mos you're saying. He's still a baby, and I know this. I love my babies though. Both of them are so different and bring such different joy to my life. Why would I NOT want to add to that???
I'm rambling, thanks for letting me share my sorrow.

our life

Well, life is about to slow down some for me. I was taking care of my friends 2 little girls, but it's just gotten to be too much. So, I told her this weekend that I wouldn't be able to do it any longer. 5 kids in my little house it just WAY too much. Plus, the kids were constantly getting sick, and I can only imagine that it's b/c all of them were together. Between the 5 of them, I'm sure they were all bringing something new for the group to catch.
Jaden is still amazing me by how much he's talking. He started saying "I want some more", "coke", "candy", "I want the book", and all sorts of other stuff. Now, let me just preferrence that Jaden NEVER gets pop and very rarely gets candy. He's also being VERY naughty!! I feel like all I do is discipline him ALL DAY LONG!!! I sure am praying that this is a phase b/c it's for sure not how he's been raised.
Asher is going through mommy seperation anxiety. If I'm even in the room and not holding him, he starts crying. I'm also praying that he gets over that phase quickly. It amazes me how different he is from Jaden. For one, Jaden was off of baby food by 5mos. Asher won't eat anything but baby food. He's started eating some things like macaroni and mashed potatoes, but mostly it's baby food. He doesn't even like yogurt. I'm just ready to be done w/making baby food and have him start eating regular stuff. I've been trying to get him to crawl or even scooch, but he has no interest. He's just content to sit there...LOL
Tomorrow we're going to GR again to walk the mall and let Jaden play. I wish our mall had a play area in it b/c Jaden just LOVES the one in GR!! A friend of mine came and gave us some organizational tips for the house. I've got paint to repaint the boys' room, but haven't gotten around to it yet. So, I'm trying to find stuff to organize the house with, and I'll probably end up painting not only the boys' room but the kitchen too. So, maybe my life won't be slowing down....LOL :)

Bad Mommy

W/Jaden, we took pictures of EVERYTHING!! We were always taking pictures. W/Asher, not so :( I haven't even started his baby book. I haven't recorded all the important details that he's gonna want to know when he gets older. People warned me that this would happen! Well, here's a couple pictures of him b/c I thought he looked rather cute, and I knew I needed to get some in of him :)

Playdate to GR...

Friday, my friends, Tami & Erin, and I took the kids to GR. We went to the Grandville Mall b/c it has an indoor play area. It was a little too chilly for the little ones to be outside. Jaden had a BLAST!!! He's getting to be such a BIG BOY!! He was running around and sliding on the slide all by himself. I need to get him to the park more often b4 the weather turns too cold.
Both my boys are under the weather :( We found out that Jaden was exposed to Hand Foot Mouth Disease last Friday. The mom waited a WEEK to let me know...GRRRR! Well, they're running fevers, and that's the 1st sign. I'm praying they aren't getting it!!!
I finally found Jaden's halloween costume. Asher is going to be a pumkin, just like Jaden was last year.












And, Jaden is going to be....

My Pride and Joys

Jaden after his 1st bike ride w/daddy.

Asher after his 1st meal of adult food (daddy forgot the bib). And, do you see him sitting up, yeah, he did that himself :)

Jaden says to me this morning, "food Momma, FOOD!" He walked in the room yesterday after I got him dressed, and I said to Shaun, "he's no longer our baby, he's a little man." They change too quickly!!!