Re-starting

Well, I'm starting my diet over again. I ran out of diet approved foods like 3 days b4 it was time to go grocery shopping. So, I could have been a good girl, but I decided to make the most of it. I gained back what I lost, so I'm back at my beginning weight :( Tonight I ate at one of my fav fast foods, had pop, and then bought one of my fav candies. So tomorrow, I'll be ready to start over :)

my wkend

Ok, lets see here....Friday, we'll start w/Friday. I took Jaden to to Peds on Friday bc he's had a cough that has gotten progressively worse, mainly at nights. He wakes up coughing so hard that I'm just waiting for him to puke :( He had no other symptoms and was really only bad at nights, but I decided that it was time to take him in, half expecting them to tell me to wait it out. We go and see Christy, who we've been seeing on a pretty regular basis now that my primary is on maternity leave. She was very impressed that Jaden's nose and sinus's have FINALLY cleared. He's had a sinus infection most of the winter, but he's now on his nose spray AND claritin which seems to be doing the job. Anyways, she listened long and hard to his lungs and decided that he has bronchitis. We started him on his meds that night, and he hasn't woken up coughing since!!! We also went out Friday night w/my family to celebrate my sister Bethany getting a job. Afterwards, Melanie, my BIL, Shaun, and I went to see Wildhogs. It was HILARIOUS! Definitely not a kid movie, but good nonetheless.
Saturday. I spent most of the day home w/the boys. We just hung out, stayed on our normal routine which was nice since Saturdays normally mess up everything. We went over to my parent's for dinner bc my dad was cooking up the fish he'd caught this winter. Afterwards, my mom took me to see Premonition. Two movies in one wkend, I know, WOW! LOL The movie went all over the place, so it was hard to follow, but it was still ok.
Sunday. We went to church, of course. Pastor's sermon made me think he'd sat in on both of my Tuesday Bible studies last week bc it was about Martha, and we talked about Martha last wk. After dinner w/my family, we took the boys for a nice long walk. It was BEAUTIFUL out!! Jaden played outside afterwards until I realized that he hadn't had a nap yet. After his nap, I had a meeting at the church, but I'm told that they went on another walk and that they played outside for the rest of the evening pretty much until I came to get them.
Well, that was my wkend. Oh, and as for my diet. I wasn't necessarily good *blushing* I had pop and candy at both movies, and then I had no-bake cookies at my mom's house (couldn't resist!). BUT, I still managed to lose 3lbs, so I must be doing something right :)

picture retakes

Now that I look back on them, I see it, but I didn't notice the black smug in the background on Asher's picture until I got the 8x10. Then, there it was, staring me right in the face. So, we had retakes. Here they are:









Like my wild haired man and my Alfalfa? That's what happens when their hair is freshly washed...LOL. I need to cut Asher's hair, but it curls in the back and is SOOO cute. I just can't bring myself to cut it :)

started my diet

Well, I started my diet on Thursday. I'm doing the South Beach diet again. I only have like 5lbs that I want to get rid of, but I wouldn't mind getting rid of a few more. Anyways, I chose the SBD bc it takes out all carbs the 1st 2wks of the diet, and carbs are my BIGGEST weakness! I remember that once I got past the 1st 2wks last time, that my desire for carbs drastically decreased. So, I figure if I can get through the 1st 2wks, that will help me a lot w/keeping my weight where I want it to be. I mean, summer is about to be here, and I gotta look good in my bikini...LOL. Here's what I look like now:

didn't get the job

Well, I went in to get my blood work done for the clinical drug test job. They had done questions over the phone to make sure I qualified, but when I got there, they said something about breastfeeding. I had planned on using the time to ween Asher since he only eats off of me once a day. But, when I told them that I was still breastfeeding, they said I couldn't do it bc I would have had to of stopped at least 3mos ago bc it messes up my results. GRRRR I just don't know why they didn't ask me about it on the phone w/all the other questions.
So, now I'm back at square one.....again.

Jaden's 2nd Opinion

I have an appt set up in Troy on April 3rd for Jaden to get his eye checked by the doctor recommended to me by Jaden's ENT.

Me in the Raw

So, yesterday wasn't the greatest. DH and I have been doing ok. Not great, not necessarily bad, but ok. But, yesterday was not good! So we were supposed to go get our pictures redone last night bc of the mistake on Asher's photos. But, he takes off and leaves, says he won't be back for the pictures. So, I go over to my mom's bc I'm still going to get the boys' pictures done, and just have to forget about the family picture, sides my brother did a really good pic of us! Anyways, he calls, we talk, and he decides to come help get the boys' photos done. After the photos, he decides we should go out. Course, we don't have any money bc I've been short on my pycks from Melanie, and we've had a lot of doctor's appt/bills. Our account is almost empty, so I'm just praying that nothing goes through b4 he gets paid tomorrow.
We went out for dinner and talked about this short term job I'm taking. It's a drug testing thing where I'll be studied for 3 5day/night periods. I'm not WANTING to be away from the kids, but when my sis goes on maternity leave, we're going to lose 2mos mortgage pymts, and I don't know how else to get the money. I've been trying to look for PT work bc Shaun wants me to get a "real job", but nothing is coming through for me. This job pays $2734, and I'm just not sure how I can pass it up!
So, we get to my parent's at almost midnight to pick up the boys. My van has been making a funny nose the last 2days, but I haven't been able to get my dad to look at it yet. Well, last night, it starts to overheat on me, so I was stranded w/the babies bc Shaun went on home. So, I got ahold of him, and he came to get me. We went to get antifreeze and let the van cool off. Got back, drove it maybe 3mins away, and it started to overheat again. It's 1A at this point, so we just left it. So, I have no vehicle. Who knows HOW much it's going to take to fix it! And then, on the radio, this song plays...
Praise you in the Storm by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

I mean, could God have had better timing?? The words are so meaningful for me. But then, I got to thinking. In my Bible study, I've learned that God is breaking me. There's something I'm supposed to be learning/changing, and He's breaking me to get me to that point. All I can pray for is that I get past this breaking point b4 I lose something non-material.

I think I'm getting a second opinion

Jaden had his ENT appt today, which by the way his ears are still doing fine...YAY! But, the last couple of times we've gone in, his doctor has asked about J's eye. So, as normal, he asked, and I told him everything that has been happening w/it. He said, and I was already thinking along these lines, that we should get a second opinion. He gave me the name of two men, one he highly recomended which is Dr Frank Nesi, and John Siddons who studied under Dr Nesi. I called my Ped to see if I could find someone to give me a second opinion, if they would give me a referral, and they said that was fine. Dr Nesi is in our network, so I'm hoping to get into him, though he has limited office hours. I just think 3yrs is too long to go w/out dealing w/Jaden's eye. We're talking about my son's eye sight and having had glasses a good part of my life, it's not something I want to take chances with. So, we'll see what another doctor has to say!

Asher took

his FIRST step today!!! My little man is growing up *tear* *tear*

Jaden's Eye Appointment

SO....we went to Ann Arbor on Thursday to see the specialist again, and this time she said that his eye is fine, and we're going to wait till he's 5 to do the surgery. Normally, I'd be doing a happy dance, but I can't help but feel like, if something WAS wrong the 1st time, and I DO believe that his eye needs help, how bad is it going to be in 3yrs????? So, I have mixed feelings on our appt.

Birthday Pictures

I only liked one of the poses done w/Jaden, and only one of the poses done w/the boys turned out. But, I loved all of the poses done w/Asher! So, here they are...enjoy :)