Birthdays Party

I'm getting really frustrated w/the boys' birthdays party. I'm continuing the tradition of one party, two themes. I know eventually the boys won't be thrilled w/a joint party, but I think I can get away w/it for a few more years. The boys have each picked out their theme. Jaden is doing football, and Asher is doing Mickey Mouse. The only problem is, we can't see to keep a date for the party! My parent's house burned, which is where the party was going to be held at, so that moved it back the first time around. Then it was going to be at my sister's house, but she ended up having to work. It's currently scheduled for Sunday bc my parent's should be back in their house, but I looked at my schedule, and even though I've NEVER worked a Sunday, she has me scheduled on Sunday. GRRRRRRRRR! I asked to be switched to another day, but if that doesn't work, I'll have to work the hours. As it is, I'm down to 19hrs a week bc we've been SO SLOW. I can't afford to lose any hours. I can't live off what I'm making now, let alone losing even more hours. So, hopefully, on day soon, we'll have a party, and I'll have pictures to share.
On a side note, I had a phone interview yesterday. If they liked me, they'll call me back w/in 3-4 days for an official interview. Pray I get that phone call!!!!!!

Filed

Yep, after months of procrastination, I finally filed the divorce papers. I'm not sure what I feel right now. I don't regret my decision. Shaun and I have discussed it MANY times, and we're not going to be able to work through things. We've both moved on and know it's just not going to work. But, it still doesn't make going through this any easier. I feel for my boys. I feel for the kind of life they're going to have going from one parent to the other. But, part of me knows that it will be better in a way bc maybe they'll be able to see a healthier side of mommy and daddy (I hope and pray!). They still have a mommy and daddy that love them w/all their hearts, and hopefully we'll be able to show them how to get along even when things don't go the way you planned!
Please just continue to keep us all in your prayers!!

New Hair Color

Ok, I decided I wanted to dye my hair again. I was going to go dark brown, but I couldn't find a color dark enough. So, I found a box that said soft black, and that's what I did. So, here's the new me.

Substitute Mom

Ok, I LOVE motherhood. My babies are the joys of my life, but there are some moments when I wish I could tag in a substitute mommy. Like, today, when Jaden puked all over my couch and through the halls to the bathroom (sorry, should have warned TMI). That's one of the moments when I would have LOVED for someone else to play mommy. I must say, out of all the things that come along w/motherhood, real throw up is the worst! I can handle spit up as infants, and even really bad poopy diapers are do-able. He was sick two nights ago, but he'd been puke free for a day, so I totally wasn't expecting it. And they both got their flue shots this year! I really hope my buddy gets feeling better soon, for his sake and selfishly for mine too.

Three Years Old

Three years ago today, I went into the hospital at 7A to be induced. And after the worst imaginable delivery w/no epidural bc I wanted to know how a real vaginal birth felt, I gave birth to my 1st born baby boy at 3:35P weighing 8lbs and 7ozs, whom we named Jaden Michael. Jaden is Hebrew meaning "God has heard" and Michael is his daddy's middle name. And after only 5mos of colic, I had a happy little baby boy.

So much has happened in the past three years, and he's changed so much. He's very much all boy! He's finally potty trained...YAY :) He loves cars, trains, trucks, airplanes, helicopters, pretty much anything w/wheels..lol He loves the outdoors. His favorite movie is Ratatouille followed by Monster's Inc, Incredibles, Cars, Ice Age and Fox and the Hound. Oh, and lets not forget his love for sports, soccer, I think, being his favorite.
I must say I find it hard to believe I'm the mother of a three year old. I'm not that old yet am I :P But, it's been a joy watching him grow and change, and I can't wait to see what else his future holds!