Me in the Raw

So, yesterday wasn't the greatest. DH and I have been doing ok. Not great, not necessarily bad, but ok. But, yesterday was not good! So we were supposed to go get our pictures redone last night bc of the mistake on Asher's photos. But, he takes off and leaves, says he won't be back for the pictures. So, I go over to my mom's bc I'm still going to get the boys' pictures done, and just have to forget about the family picture, sides my brother did a really good pic of us! Anyways, he calls, we talk, and he decides to come help get the boys' photos done. After the photos, he decides we should go out. Course, we don't have any money bc I've been short on my pycks from Melanie, and we've had a lot of doctor's appt/bills. Our account is almost empty, so I'm just praying that nothing goes through b4 he gets paid tomorrow.
We went out for dinner and talked about this short term job I'm taking. It's a drug testing thing where I'll be studied for 3 5day/night periods. I'm not WANTING to be away from the kids, but when my sis goes on maternity leave, we're going to lose 2mos mortgage pymts, and I don't know how else to get the money. I've been trying to look for PT work bc Shaun wants me to get a "real job", but nothing is coming through for me. This job pays $2734, and I'm just not sure how I can pass it up!
So, we get to my parent's at almost midnight to pick up the boys. My van has been making a funny nose the last 2days, but I haven't been able to get my dad to look at it yet. Well, last night, it starts to overheat on me, so I was stranded w/the babies bc Shaun went on home. So, I got ahold of him, and he came to get me. We went to get antifreeze and let the van cool off. Got back, drove it maybe 3mins away, and it started to overheat again. It's 1A at this point, so we just left it. So, I have no vehicle. Who knows HOW much it's going to take to fix it! And then, on the radio, this song plays...
Praise you in the Storm by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

I mean, could God have had better timing?? The words are so meaningful for me. But then, I got to thinking. In my Bible study, I've learned that God is breaking me. There's something I'm supposed to be learning/changing, and He's breaking me to get me to that point. All I can pray for is that I get past this breaking point b4 I lose something non-material.

I think I'm getting a second opinion

Jaden had his ENT appt today, which by the way his ears are still doing fine...YAY! But, the last couple of times we've gone in, his doctor has asked about J's eye. So, as normal, he asked, and I told him everything that has been happening w/it. He said, and I was already thinking along these lines, that we should get a second opinion. He gave me the name of two men, one he highly recomended which is Dr Frank Nesi, and John Siddons who studied under Dr Nesi. I called my Ped to see if I could find someone to give me a second opinion, if they would give me a referral, and they said that was fine. Dr Nesi is in our network, so I'm hoping to get into him, though he has limited office hours. I just think 3yrs is too long to go w/out dealing w/Jaden's eye. We're talking about my son's eye sight and having had glasses a good part of my life, it's not something I want to take chances with. So, we'll see what another doctor has to say!

Asher took

his FIRST step today!!! My little man is growing up *tear* *tear*

Jaden's Eye Appointment

SO....we went to Ann Arbor on Thursday to see the specialist again, and this time she said that his eye is fine, and we're going to wait till he's 5 to do the surgery. Normally, I'd be doing a happy dance, but I can't help but feel like, if something WAS wrong the 1st time, and I DO believe that his eye needs help, how bad is it going to be in 3yrs????? So, I have mixed feelings on our appt.

Birthday Pictures

I only liked one of the poses done w/Jaden, and only one of the poses done w/the boys turned out. But, I loved all of the poses done w/Asher! So, here they are...enjoy :)